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  • Writer's pictureJessica Mckasson

The Unexpected Gifts of Being Bedridden with Dengue Fever.

In the fast-paced world we live in, it can be so easy for us as women to get caught up in the constant demands and pressures of life. However, sometimes the Universe throws us a curveball, forcing us to slow down, release control, and surrender to the flow of the universe. Recently, I found myself bedridden with Dengue fever, an incredibly challenging experience that turned out to be a profound lesson in surrendering and embracing my feminine energy at deeper levels than I ever have before. Here are 5 of the invaluable insights gained during my journey of recovery.

1. Slowing Down & Honoring My Body: As women, we often push ourselves to the limit, juggling numerous roles and responsibilities. Sometimes I don't even realize how much I'm pushing until something forces me to slow down. And that's exactly what Dengue fever did. It brought my entire life to a standstill, forcing me to listen to my body and slow down. Even though I was smack dab in the middle of some big projects, I had to completely surrender to the needs of my body and hit pause on everything. I had to listen to my body above all else. I had to listen to what body was asking for me for and honor it's needs. How often is your body begging for your attention and asking for a need to be met, but we ignore it in favor of pushing ourselves? The beauty of the divine intelligence of our bodies is that it doesn't matter how much we try to ignore their needs, their voice will only get louder and louder until we slow down and listen. This experience reminded me of how important it is to ALWAYS listen to the needs of my body.

2. Releasing Control & Trusting the Process: The experience of Dengue fever reminded me of the futility of trying to control every aspect of our lives. Even though I had plans in place and deadlines pending, the Universe was like, "nope, not gonna happen." At first this was incredibly frustrating, but then I realized I just needed to completely surrender to what was and release all control. And most importantly, I moved into a place of trust that this was all happening for a reason, even if I didn't know what it was. I often find myself wanting to "know" everything, I want to plan, I want answers as to why something is happening the way it is. But here's the thing, sometimes we aren't meant to know. Sometimes we are meant to be kept in the dark so that something even more incredible can unfold. I truly do believe that everything happens for a reason and everything that happens is part of a grander plan. And it's only when I find myself trying to control things or not trusting the process of this grander (unknown) plan that this creates tension within me. When I am just trusting in the flow, life is effortless and easy. There is beauty in uncertainty. I was reminded that in the darkness of not knowing, in the void, this is the place for limitless expansion can take place because there are no limits to be seen. Getting Dengue reminded me to loosen the reigns. release control, and reestablish my trust in the unknown.

3. Embracing Vulnerability& Receiving: I am so thankful that my partner Jose was there to take care of my during this process. But my goodness, there is something so humbling about having to be fed and walked to the toilet. This experience reminded me of how difficult it can be for me to ask for help sometimes and the vulnerability that comes with fully simply just receiving it. This beautiful man waited on me hand and foot, cooked all my food, fed me, massaged me, did energy work on me, ran to go get anything I needed without question, and so much more, for almost two weeks. And I could do absolutely NOTHING in return or anything to help. I had to be in full-blown receiving mode for almost two weeks. Thankfully, it was pretty easy for me to do this because I've been working on healing my feminine energy for quite some time now. And the feminine energy is the energy of receiving. So if you struggle to receive, this is a sign that your feminine energy is blocked. Getting Dengue was a powerful reminder of how important it is to allow ourselves to receive, without feeling guilty or feeling like we need to return the favor. It reminded me that I am worthy of being pampered and taken care of. And side note, it also made me so thankful that I never settled for a mediocre relationship and that I have a partner who was willing to do all of that for me and to do so with all of this love. So ladies, if you are single reading this, I'm here to remind you: DON'T SETTLE! I promise there is a man out there who will wait on you hand and foot.

4. Cultivating Self-Compassion: NDengue fever reminded me of the importance of self-compassion. Instead of berating myself for being unable to do anything, I had to embrace treating both my body and my mind with love, compassion, and gentleness. As women, we can be so hard on ourselves and shame on ourselves for not doing "more" all of the time or being productive enough. But it's so important that we remember to be gentle with ourselves, to love on ourselves, and give ourselves grace. So the next time you start to be hard on yourself for not doing "enough", I challenge you to flip the script and instead, honor yourself for everything you have done. And even if you have a day where you barely leave the couch, that's okay too. That might just mean that your body needed rest. So instead of berating yourself and saying something like, "I've been so lazy and unproductive today.", say to yourself, "I'm so proud of myself for listening to and honoring my body's needs today." That is self-compassion in action!

5. Embracing Surrender: Dancing with life's ebbs and flows, moving through periods of expansion and contraction, activity and rest; this is what life is all about. There are going to be times when we just need to surrender to the rest, to the flow, to the periods of contraction. And when we surrender to this, it feels so damn good. It's when we are in resistance and when fight these periods that we create our own suffering. When we let go and surrender to the flow of life, we embrace the magic of the present moment. Surrendering doesn't mean giving up; it means accepting what is and finding peace within it. I was definitely creating more suffering for myself when I first got sick and was laying there shaking my fists at the ceiling asking the Universe why this was happening. But as soon as I surrendered to the experience and adopted the mentality "it is what it is and it will pass when it's time for it to pass", everything shifted. It is through surrender that we align ourselves with the greater cosmic plan and invite abundance and grace into our lives.

Dengue fever may have confined me to bed and shaken up all of my plans, but it gifted me with some profound wisdom, reminders, and insights. It reminded me to slow down, release control, and surrender to the beauty of life's unfolding. By surrendering, we unlock our true power, nurture our Feminine energy, and radiate our light into the world. So, let us embrace the journey, dance with life's rhythms, and celebrate the transformative power of surrender.

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